Don't let expectation become regret

I am an employee who works in a flexible circuit board factory. My daily job is to take the customer's orders down to the system, recover the goods, arrange the delivery and help the customer handle some matters. When I saw the colleague's “Deeper Union at the tip of the tongue” on the company’s website, the first thought that came into my mind was — I wanted to go home, I missed my childhood because I had no money to buy snacks. Snacks.

This year is the sixth year of my job. It is also my sixth year in the circuit board industry. In the past six years, except for the days of the Chinese New Year, I really rarely went home. Now, at home, my grandfather suffers from Alzheimer's disease. As long as her grandmother disappears in front of him for half an hour, he will find grandma everywhere. Grandma also can only walk on crutches because of stroke. Almost all of our generation are born from generation to generation in the family, that is, parents go out to work and earn money, leaving only the elderly to bring children at home.

Snacks for childhood are fast sources for me. Grandma is a person who believes in Buddha. Every month at the beginning of the fifteenth month, I need to go to the temple to worship Buddha. The two days of each month are what I am most looking forward to because Grandma will bring back a lot of candy from the temple, and Grandma will say that this candy was seen in front of the Buddha of Buddha. It is good for us to eat, and it is blessing for the Buddha. Usually this kind of candy grandmother will be collected and reluctant to give me food, only to stay with relatives or relatives at home to come and call relatives.

Until now, what I miss most is the buffalo flower that Grandma had done in March. When she was young, whenever he had time, Grandma would let me pick up a basket and fill her fields with water buffaloes. Then she would choose to wash again. , take care of the clean water in the boiling water, and then use rice flour pushed into a flour, made of a buffalo flower pot, in the fire on the pan frying, or steaming you can eat Jie Xi, and fragrant Soft, sweet, smooth, delicious.

Of course, there are very few time to eat snacks in the rural areas. When my grandfather and grandmother took me with me, they were still in their 60s. Grandpa was still in charge of the fields at home. My family was rice in the middle. At the time, it was still three seasons of rice. The lunar calendar in March and April was the time for the early rice. Grandfather will rush the old yellow cattle in the morning out to plow the field. At this time, there is a kind of fruit. It is called “萢” on our side. The saying goes in March. It grows on the field or on the side of the mountain, in that season. This is the one that eats the most. When Grandpa comes back for breakfast, he will use his clothes to go back in a pocket, or with a bucket.

At Ching Ming Festival, there are camellia and tea pots, which is also one of the snacks we used to be as a child.

And when all things sprouted, Grandma would bring us a handful of thorns when she was feeding cows and pulling ragweed. This is a tender note of our kind of Chinese rose that will be peeled when we eat. It's delicious, with a slight sweetness.

In the memory, the grandmother made the chili pepper fried chicken, the pumpkin vine fried meat, the pork blood fried bacon, the sour chili fried duck meat seems to remain in the memory, but the tongue has rarely been able to eat so delicious food. I still remember the second year I went home. I was thinking about my own home. I was crying in the dorm and called back to my grandmother but I didn't dare to speak. I was afraid that my grandmother would know where I was crying, but eventually she gave me up for 20 years. The grandmother heard something wrong and then cried with me on the phone. I remember when my grandmother only said one sentence. “Wandering, want to come home and come back. My grandmother gave you your favorite sour chili fried chicken. ."

In order to raise me, my grandmother did not go out too far in her entire life. On her 80th birthday, my grandmother came to give her birthday. She once took my hand and said, “Ping Ping, when you are your grandmother, you are carrying you. Did not let you walk through the road, if you did not take you, hurry to go back in our home after dinner, saying that you are afraid of crying at home, looking for her everywhere, are reluctant to live in us for a night, and now she 80 When I was old, it was time to enjoy my life.” At that time, I didn’t know what was happening. When I heard it, I cried. In this grandmother’s life, I pulled seven children and I thought I could rest, but then I I started to bring my grandchildren and I haven't had a rest in my life. I haven't been to a place that is too far away. I had thought of letting her come out to walk around with her. However, as I grew older, I was not as good as I was before. Not far away, and all I can do is to take her place instead of walking around, then take a picture of it and give it a look. Buy local food and send it home to let her taste it.

At the end of each year, grandfather and grandma will always ask me on the phone: “Is it coming home this year? Why would you come home early? Oh, the chickens in your house are all fat. Wait for you?” "If you want to be quiet and windy," I hope that you will pay more attention to the elderly in your family, spend more time with your parents, don't let hope become disappointment, and finally become regrettable.